Sorry for the amount of time since the last personal post. I was crazy busy with classes, and then crazy busy celebrating the end of being crazy busy with classes. (Does that make sense to anyone besides me?) Anywho, I decided that today, with having chats galore on a plethora of topics over the past week or so, that I would share some (tentative) dreams for my future. I know, you’re probably thinking ‘what happened to becoming a pastor?’ and don’t worry, that’s still nestled in there, right smack dab in the middle of the dream for my future. Now I know that it’s been said that when people plan, God laughs. I agree. Crazy, right? But this isn’t really a plan, so much as some desirables that I’m thinking about. No plans, just possibilities. I’ll leave the position of Head Planner to God. (Smart idea, eh?)
With that being said, here’s some possibilities I’m toying with:
1) I’d love to have a huge garden. I’ve tried my hand at the whole plant growing thing over the past semester or two, and I have to say that I haven’t done half bad. At the moment, I currently own a variety of non-edibles, including: lucky bamboo, spider plants (ahh! spiders!) various cacti and some weird (but really cool) purple leaved viney thingers that have yellow flowers. I also have an assortment of edibles, including: three zucchini plants, four tomato plants, four lettuce plants, two spinach plants, and a mint plant. A little note on the lettuce and mint- they’re going CRAZY! my one lettuce plant is encroaching the top of the window (which is almost five feet high) and the mint plant is well over a foot high, nearly two. In any case, I’d really love it some day if I were able to grow a huge garden and have all sorts of edibles and inedibles out there. In addition to that, I’d love a house full of plants, possibly some pets running around, and DEFINITELY a partner to enjoy it all with-bringing me to…
2) Find that Special Someone. Right now it seems like it would take a miracle to find that special guy that I can spend the rest of my life with. Someone who will love me for who I am, encourage me to be even better and expect that I’ll do the same for him. Despite the seeming impossibility of it all, I still hope that God will grant that to me someday. Maybe not this year or even this decade, but hopefully someday. If not, then it must not be meant to be. A dear friend-make that several dear friends have told me that I’ll find that special someone when I stop looking. Trouble is that every time I do stop looking, I suddenly think that maybe that’ll mean I’ll find him. Which puts me right back at square one. So I’m putting it in God’s hands.
3) I’d love a little house with a big yard. Or even just a little house with a little yard. Growing up, it was great to be able to explore the house that I grew up in. We always had plenty of space and yet not enough. I think part of the problem was that it was big enough that we could push things elsewhere (out of sight, out of mind) like the basement or garage, and not have to worry about it. But then when it came to cleaning it all, I’m not sure we ever really managed to get the whole way through before having to start over. after a while you just learned to ignore parts of it. My dorm room here isn’t that big (but also not that small) and works great for me. It’s big enough that I can have a place for everything, but small enough that even when it gets crazy dirty (like now) it only takes a couple of hours to clean. That’s what I’d want in a house. cleaning is a great way for me to blow off steam or battle worry/stress, but it would be great if I didn’t have to sustain a week-long worry binge in order to whip the place into shape.
4) Be debt free. I know this isn’t going to happen overnight, but I’d love to be debt free-the sooner the better. Now, right now I understand that’s not really an option. But I’m trying to decrease the amount I have to add to that ever-growing number so as to keep it more restrained. A major shocker for me was looking at my student loans. The interest is updated daily, and right now I’m getting charged nearly a dollar a day on interest alone. As of now, before taking out loans for next year’s tuition (I don’t even want to think about Senior year) it has it figured out to $292.91 a month for payments, starting July 21st, 2015. I’m hoping that by then I’ll have a call to an amazing congregation (perhaps have a month or so already down) but I worry what that number will look like in the future. That number is bigger than most of my checks from when I worked at Festival. Scary!
5) Tithe freely and from the heart. I know this may seem like a total contradiction from the last point, but I don’t see it that way. Whenever I attend worship now, I always make sure to give at least something. A 10% tithe while I’m working at work study is easy. #7.50/hour and ten hours makes $7.50. Sometimes I give more, sometimes less. Either way, I feel that if I’m giving freely and from the heart, it will make me think more consciously about other money matters. Besides, it’s not even really my money. It all belongs to God-I’m just the one put in charge to be a good steward of it. Keeping this in mind will only help me to be debt free faster. The way I look at it, the more debt I have, it’s like the more debt I’m giving God.
6) Never be too busy for the small stuff. The past few days, with no classes and only sporadic obligations have been great. I went out for lunch today, was able to get some great reading done and start on even more, and finally broke out the yarn again. But I tried to make sure my days weren’t all about me, either. I asked people if they’d like help, listened to other peoples’ stories, read some of the Good Book (which is also personally rewarding) and tried to be out there in the community for others. CPE will no doubt be great practice for this. When I walk into those hospital rooms, I won’t be there for me. I’ll be there for that other person AND for me. I include myself in that because the moment I feel like I’m just there to give and not receive anything in return is the moment that I put the other person down. It’s like I’m saying they’re not good enough to teach me anything or help me. I’ve never found this to be true. No matter how young or old, educated or not, female or male, rich or poor, black or white, you name it, they’ve taught me something. Sometimes it’s something about others, and sometimes it’s something about myself. In any case, I want to make sure in life that I’m always able to stop and smell the roses, and to make sure that if at all possible, I bring someone along to share it with.
Now it’s your turn!
What would you like to possibly do with your future? What are some possibilities you’d like God to maybe grant to you? What do you think about my desires for future possibilities? I’d really love to hear your thoughts on the matter. Let me know by commenting, sending me an e-mail at firstname.lastname@example.org or calling me at (563)589-0242. I even got an answering machine! (I hope it works, why don’t you leave me a message and try it out?)